This post was suggested by my boyfriend, Wolfy, who I am going to see on Saturday for nine whole days. Ohmygoshyay.
A couple years ago, I read posts from Allie Brosh on Hyperbole And A Half. I am no where near as funny as she is and I don't think I ever have a hope to be. Humor like that has to be something you're born with and you have to learn how to use that amazing talent.
But I started wondering what it would feel like to make somebody laugh like that. I'm not a comedian. I honestly don't want to be. But how amazing would it be to make somebody laugh so much? Or what would it be like to make somebody think about something important that could make a difference in somebody's life?
I started considering it more and more. Should I start a blog? What if I get a lot of hate for it? What if somebody I don't like finds it? What if I get some crazy stalker for whatever reason? Maybe I shouldn't do it. There are a lot of risks with putting my thoughts out there.
When I finally decided to start a blog, I was stuck in bed because I was sick. That's probably not saying much. When you're sick, you really shouldn't decide anything, because it might not be the smartest choice. But I was fully aware of that and I decided to start my blog anyways.
Originally, I wanted to write about funnier topics. Something that could make somebody's day better with a laugh or a smile. The longer I wrote, the more I realized that it just doesn't come naturally enough. Yeah, I have funny stories, but I'm not humorly-talented like most of the blogs I read.
I think that a lot of bloggers, or writers in general, have to just keep writing until they figure out how they need to do things. Some people are better with funny topics. Some people are better with meaningful, inspiring posts. Some people can do both and more. I'm still trying to learn what I'm actually good at. I must be doing something write, though, since I now have 37 followers.
Its easy to find something that I can rant about. I have more than enough posts that involve me ranting about things that made me mad or even just irritated me. I also have plenty of conversations between my friends and I. But I don't want my blog to revolve completely around anger nor do I want this to just be a log of conversations.
After a few months of blogging, I realized that I wanted to write something more meaningful. Conversations with my friends mean a lot to me and they might make somebody laugh, but would they make a difference for anyone? I don't even know if the posts I try to make meaningful make a difference to anyone but I did find out why I really wanted to start blogging.
I wanted to find my voice and be able to speak out about anything that I want to. I haven't always been able to do that. Even if it doesn't make a difference to anyone else, I know that I put my thoughts out there. Even if some of my posts are angry, some are funny, some are stupid, some are important, and they're all over the place. They're my thoughts, they're out there, and I have a way to be heard since I'm probably the shyest person you'll ever meet. If I happen to do something meaningful along the way, then that's even better.
I guess, long story short, I began blogging because I had something to say. I just haven't always known what it was.